oh, well, where to start?
on monday, my only little birdie passed away. he suffered a lot. he didn't deserve this!
he was my other half. my very big part. I don't know what to do without him. he was very smart; even could say words, greeted me and "said" goodbye when I went to school. he even called me on a special voice. when I raised my hand, he welcomed me. I was, and I am still very proud of him. we watched Rocky and Bullwinkle together. last year. all summer long. when I watched historical movies, he only said something for the german music, not for the soviet. amazing. a tamed little birdie. this birdie was amazing.
but this summer I worked a lot, and didn't have much time for him...mom sez he needed some private time, okay, but.. I just can't get over it. I cried a lot, but this is not about me.
how pity that there's no bird specialist in that capital
only troll people. because anywhere I went in the last weeks, I met trolls, who didn't have same views, so, they thought I'm mad and things. I hate only a few people. but when I hate someone..I could send them to hell! but even Himmler doesn't deserve to have his afterlife with them..heh
oh, well, I didn't mention, since the happening, which I said first, I am sick. yes, everything has happened under two days, which can be described as "sickness". everything. maybe it's because of my soul. when I should have some calmness and support, I get hurt.
today, I can tell you, I hate the internet. not you, guys, the internet itself. full of lies, like the real life. everyone hurts everyone, you can't have peace forever. I hated to turn on my compy. I hate everything I used to do. watching tv, eating, drawing, how I look(oh, that one for long time)...everything. I don't know how should I live.
I didn't want to celebrate my nameday (hungarians do.) .. oh, and my poor boy! I've promised a picture for him. at least his birthday should've been happy.
about drawing. yes, I still have plans, and don't want to leave mines in the mess...I'm just not delighted. and it makes me angry. so many mistakes, no improvement. seriously, I really feel sorry for all the characters I draw.
oh, I've seen what the lovely
got!! you're so lucky with that poster, dollink. maybe someday I'll get one too.. I need one on my wall
, I miss our chats. but I don't want to go to facebook anymore. I guess, I'll have to, but I really don't wanna visit that site. :/ if fb messenger worked....eh. but I hope we can meet soon. ((ne lepődj majd meg, borzalmasan nézek ki heh))
, thank you for all the funny gifs you've sent and please keep sending them!! they give me a little happiness every time. ((és megnéztem egy részt az új TMNT-ből is, mert adják az rtl-en. amikor találkoznak a krokival, aki egy alligátor. tény, hogy teljesen újra van gondolva a sorozat, és ezt nem rossz értelemben mondtam.))
and thanks for my real friends for the support! in these weeks, I had to block a few fake friends. they showed their real face..even after a year. how pity.
well, I guess...that's all for now? I hope so. by comparison, Goebbels' emo diary is full of happiness..
just a random, boring journal about my life happenings :/
nowadays I am very tired, because university has started and realized that I have to stay there until 8pm two times x_x
my computer is about to die I guess. I already have strange happenings with the virus scanner, sometimes it works, sometimes not. if you see anything strange happening on any of my pages, pls let me know somehow....oh my..
plus, lack of motivation, to be precise, I've lost almost all of my motivation today looked at the circa 10 pages of sketches and I said, it doesn't worth to be..anywhere. seriously.
also, the usual "where is everyone in need". I'm so done with facebook, I only have this for the hungarian SH fans, and the other for the school shit. I'm so done with everything.
today I wanted to take a look at the historical newspaper, but no motivation/power. same with lil' Joe's diary, with taking photos..watching movies...with everything. I only watch and record my fave series () but..I have no power to draw. others can do it better.....
it's kinda hard IRL, because my parrot, my only one, Marci is sick and nobody can help him totally, because there's no birdie specialist in this damned capital! seriously, we have a lot of idiots, but can't we afford a specialist?!?! I'm very sad because of this.
I should put the "commissions" thing on my main profile already. if you ask and say, what to draw, maybe I can practice a bit. but I don't wanna read that long text, to activate it ><
and Günsche's birthday (which is also my nameday-hungarians celebrate everything) is on the corner!!yay! I wonder what would he say for me. probably nothing ( ;_;)
I also miss the Tintin things, the fandom is about to die on tumblr, and everywhere. I miss daddy/master Hergé. everything.